Discussion in 'relationships & family' started by Jean-Paul, Jan 3, 2010.
lying. i do care enough to delete it
It wasn't that bad. I was about to post my recently morbidly horrifying drunk story but it didn't so much fit into the context of the thread. It would have been nice downward comparison though?
i wish i had drugs
so i didnt have to be conscious right now
I just rolled back into lawrence indefinitely since I've run out of living in cali money...and I run into an old friend/boy who I desperately want to fuck (bad in itself, really) that's nice, we get hammered and somewhere along the line I get dragged to this party...from what i remember of it it was pretty much what I imagine a circle of hell would be like for me...filled with people I hoped I would never see ever ever again because I've shamed myself too many times in front of this crowd. i wake up the next morning and i am told by my friend that i drunkenly propositioned my old roommate through text message (wtf? ) needless to say he gets pissed and i end up going off with his straight buddy and fucking around until for some reason or another I push him into a sliding glass door. and at that point I guess they got me into my car and made me DRIVE us the hell out of there which i do not remember doing.
i'm still terrified to open up my text messages and i deleted whatever it was that was sent/ sent to me without looking. now i'm using this snow as an excuse to not leave the house. what's worse is that i don't think i'm being told the full story about whatever else it was i did and it's not fucking coming back to me. i have every reason for paranoia
fuck technology...and windows.
glass in general
hmmm....my nite ended suddenly and unexpectedly. the person i was with unbeknownst to me stole a hundred out of my wallet and a check for fifty dollars. this person is still claiming that this did not happen; however this person slept in a car supposedly and shit their pants.
so yeah, i was waiting for someone to bust out shitty new yrs stories.
well ty deadfagrobbie
now that ppl are posting
-find out very bad things when bf leaves fb open
-drink to blackout
-smoke weed even though i hate it, piss off roommates
-break window w/barefoot, throw shards of glass
continue to post stories
fb and texting yet more reasons why technology can be evil...
Wait a sec.
You're a guy? Would've never guessed. Unless your previous userhandle was exit75 or something to that effect...
then it all makes sense.
what is or was your bf up to jp?
i don't have any shameful stories lately except maybe for throwing up out a second story window (in broad daylight)
I don't think this is as embarrassing as you think it is. What did you find out, if you care to share? Or just a general idea? Like, it is relationship-ending?
it rly should be relationship ending.
right now i'm just staying right here.
b/c i really want to run to him for comfort about this all. bad. no. bad. should not do that. ever. stupid.
we had been fighting. we have been.
but i figured we were mutually. well. still on the same page. in a lot of ways. on the things we'd fight about.
this is why you shouldn't date someone whose friendship means a lot.
i should have known
we've been together for 3 yrs
now i just dont feel anything.
that upsets me more than the pain of it.
i think i won't be feeling anything for a long time. if i have been
oh man that sucks
have you broached the subject with him or just do the window breaking?
that fully sucks jean paul.
i haven't been able to speak with him.
i don't feel like speaking to anyone right now. however.
i don't like operating like this
that not feeling anything
that was wishful thinking
love you jp.